I'm in that phase right now after being out of it for a while.... I go back and forth. It fucking sucks being held back in everything You can possibly do because of this God damn curse. "Just don't let it get to you" is what I tell myself. I can beat this shit and it won't overcome who I am and what I'll do later in life. It won't affect my relationship with women any longer and I'll be damned if I let it control me any more.