One of my worst fears came to life today.

One of my worst fears came to life today. In December, I started a remote customer service IT job supporting a certain gas station chain. We've been going through training for just over a month and had our first store calls today! I was chosen to do a call when I... completely and utterly panicked. The anxiety ran over me and I stuttered while forcing myself through the call as the trainer and other new employees listened on. The trainer was very supportive and told me exactly what to say in the background, but I still couldn't say it and substituted my words. I'm just so so tired...this has taken so much from me. I fought this evil and worked as a front end manager at Walmart for almost 2 years and thought I got better. I wish that I could say I can get past this. However, cold calls are something I can never see myself getting past without therapy. I'm seeing a speech pathologist ASAP and I won't let it win.