Ugh you are right. I guess it's not about this, I just generally feel angry. I feel angry that I have so much to contend with, at having to build myself up cell by fucking cell, without any support or any framework for what I'm supposed to be building. I have so much struggle ahead of me only due to my parents' selfishness. I feel frustrated. But I'm going to try to let go of it for my stutter at least.