Yeah, it's not so easy. AND you were starting a new job. >I do hope the feeling goes away It will it will. This was just the first day! It will get better. I know that it will kind of be like the "first day" every time you rotate, but you will see that will get easier too. Since they already know, you can say, "as you can probably already tell...." I still think saying it will break some of the tension for you. Of course, you can also never say it. But since you said that when other people bring it up it makes it easier for you, I think it might help to say it. Most people don't know if they should bring it up or not, or don't know how to, so they say nothing, you know? If you open the door, it's easier for everyone. I know it feels too hard now, but.....well, if you can just do it those couple of times, it will stop being a "thing."