I understand you 100% but I just feel that I’ve missed out on so many opportunities that I could’ve done whether if it was with friends or school. I’m only 17 and I feel like I missed out on a life time of occasions. What really bugs me is the little things, saying my name, or even telling a joke to my friends. One that gets me is the vocabulary I don’t use because I can’t even say it with out fucking up. I don’t want to sound self proclaim-ish but I kinda know I’m smart. I swear In school every time a teacher would ask questions, few people will raise their hand and blurt out the wrong answer or no one would. And when the teacher would just give us the answer I would scream inside “I should’ve answered”. I adore the idea of having superior intelligence and being genius but with it you have to speak fluently cause if not I feel people listening will either giggle or roll their eyes in boredom. I’m just rambling but man I wish I could have done so many things if I didn’t have this stutter, even the simplest things like ordering food or making appointments, having a conversation, yelling across a room for something so that I wouldn’t have to get up myself to do it. It’s something so unique anyone who doesn’t stutter will never understand. One thing I despise is when people say “I used to stutter too but it went away” just to make me feel better but that’s bullshit. I don’t believe but I go along with it. I just wish mine went away. Having this stammer really formed the person I am now and without it I can only fantasize what kind of person I would’ve been. But I will truly never know. Now than ever I feel more confident because this subreddit, and I don’t look back and kick myself cause none of high school and before mattered I mean it’s shit really. I’ve graduated now and I’m planning to go to the marines if they accept me and my stutter. Cause they didn’t the second time with a different recruiter but my first one worked with me. I don’t know