postr/StutterOctober 6, 2024

i'm so fed up with this...

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i'm so fed up with this... i never been someone that post about their problems online but i don't care anymore so i was outside getting some groceries, an old guy approaches me he asks: are you by chance going to the convenient store *(sorry if my english is unbearable)* and me being the pathetic wanna be a good person piece of sh\*\* i wanted to help i was gonna say: yeah what do you need from there *and then i get a fkn huge block* *i was stuck on the first litter for 10 seconds which felt like eternity to me* he then tells me: nevermind you can go *i leave the scene feeling both defeated and embarrased* i felt numb i felt like i should've been more sad but i couldn't bring myself to do so this happened 2 hours ago but that scene keeps playing in my head i can't stop it so i came to reddit hoping some human would read it and acknowledge the sht i go through (i never spoke about my stutter to anyone EVER

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Anticipating StutteringFeared Words & NamesAvoidance & SubstitutionShame & Embarrassment

Codes (3)

ordering_service_encounterlistener_reactionperceived_judgment