I def. realize how much I ramble, lol and ironically thought I'd try to deal with that in this video but I knew I was failing 5 minutes into it! It is just so weird to me to simply put in two sentences that I stopped dwelling on it, I realized the block is never indefinite so I began just going for it allowing myself to stutter at first because i knew it'd be over with shortly like it always is, just the fatigue after i was worried about would carry over (edit: I mean the word I'm blocking on would get through, not to say I wouldn't continue blocking in the next set of words or the next sentence). I thought maybe it'll make more sense if I tell what i went through and how I tried it over the phone and what happened over time, etc. Because I just don't know how to explain it otherwise without it sounding so obvious and dismissive. But telling such a story just made it seem like a ramble, even I realized it as I was going :-/ Multiple times now and each time I think maybe this time it'll be different, lol. There is more I forgot to talk about but that's ok, the greatest impact was the most simplest for me but took a lot of conscious effort and time to become almost second nature.