Watch Anna Deeter and Dr Morton Cooper on YouTube. Stop caring what others think of you!! In ten years you wont even remember this time in your life. In the meantime, just stutter if u have to, you'll ger way more respect from just doing it and not giving a fk. Also listen or read "Reality Transurfing by Vadim Zeland". You can find it on audible or Amazon. it will change your life.