We’re all right there with you. Stuttering fucking sucks sometimes and we’ve all been through it. My best advice is to find a speech therapist who specializes in stuttering; many SLPs won’t really “get” it in the same way as someone with stuttering specific experience. (In many cases, SLPs specializing in stuttering are people who stutter themselves.) Id check out the American Institute for Stuttering if you can, they are really good about offering financial support / scholarships.