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My stutter is ruining me I feel like venting a little bit, i have the type of stutter where i get blocks on certain words, i litterally can not say the sound of the word without sounding super stupid. My stutter started when i was around 7 or 8 i am 22 now, it comes and goes in periods, but it has been quite bad lately, here are some examples, went to this bar and this guy asked me something and we talked for a little bit, then he asked for my name, and i just could not get it out, the vibe died so quick, it was almost like he felt disgusted with me, the conversation died very shortly after my block and i went back to my friends like nothing happened. The night after that at another bar, this beautiful girl came up to me and started a conversation, and i stuttered on almost every word, i could see her eyes slowly dying in front of me and she left while i was trying to say something, i am not going to lie, i wanted to punch myself in the face after that one. Another example. Went to a store and asked the cashier for some snus, and i couldn't say which snus i wanted, she laughed in my face, because i was stuttering. These are just a few examples, i usually never run into people like that. Most people are very patient and kind, i am just so tired of me not beeing able to do what i want, my stutter is holding me back from so much, i am not introverted at all, but my stutter forces me to be, there has been so many situations where i just want to ask people something or try and make friends with people at the bar, or whatever it could be. I feel like it's controlling me, i have become the "quiet" one not because i am shy but because i know i will stutter beforehand, it's tiring i feel trapped in my self.