But I don't care if people laugh or not. There are many different people around. Those who laugh usually never faced real pain and constant self-hatred when you are so broken that you want to end your life and you think about it everyday. When every around live normal life and dream about something like family, relationships, money. But your only dream is to end your life because it's getting worse. Especially when you don't have speech, nice appearance, talents, good brain, money, stable mental state, faced a lot of abuse which made you sick. Like you have nothing. How is it to build up a life to be able to be an average person when you're born with no good qualities at all? Those who laugh will never understand this. They got it easy in life. Great. Let them laugh. I have met people who have called me disgusting useless human being and underdeveloped. I agree with them. And it's funny. They're right. I hate this life. But don't lose hope to be better one day. Just to live silent life, find a way to be useful in this world, society. And die peacefully. Maybe next life will be great