Hang in there. Find a therapist that works for you. I’m 36 and still stutter pretty bad, took a long time to get over it mentally and accept it and not let others get me down. I received therapy around 5 years ago that did more than my entire child hood of going to therapy through the school system. If you need money look into jobs that don’t require much communication, possibly over night jobs or warehouse jobs. Something that you can go throughout your work day without needing to talk to anyone.