I wish I had your positive attitude back then and now. I can't believe the desperate measures just to try to hide my stutter and please others. I wish I could laugh things off like you did but its easier said than done and Im a bit sensitive. I just have to not care so much what others think and if they laugh or look at me weird just don't be so hard on myself. Because once those things happen my entire day is ruined. I guess those mean people who showed me who they were were a blessing because they don't need to be in my life. Its just hard because like you said you can't just turn it off, every single day you have to communicate with the world. I'll try from now on to not let it get to me and not care what others think about my stutter break me so much.