i feel u, but hoenstly dont know what to say. i struggle with this curse everyday. you know, everytime im about to speak i think "hey, do i even stutter? its gone now" or something, and well, its just a dumb way to forget about it. but maybe it does help. let me tell you something. i was in a restaurant with my gf, i asked a waiter for the bill (i did stutter of course). then she said "i see you stutter when you order food and yoyr voice is changed, does it make you stressed? i can be the one talking next time". it hit me. pretty deep. she never talked about my stutter with me before. i realized people still see it. i can tell myself anything but its still visible to people. its a part of me. she doesnt know the feeling of being able to say one sentence fluently. but you know what. im not letting her speak for me. im not letting this shit control my life, my will. stutter is a result of fear of stuttering. im gonna keep going. and so will you and everyone in this sub. we gotta fight. i know what its like when u see the look of peoples faces. it doesnt matter tho. whenever you decide to speak, fight your fears, its a win. i want you to keep going. the stutter is in our heads. thats the truth. we can do it. i hope you will find your peace.