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Can't say name I feel like my stuttering has gone worse throughout the years as I became more self concious. I stutter with people differently. With my family(sister and mom), I stutter on only a few words if I'm talking too fast but other part of my family I intentionally change the words I want to say just so I don't stutter on them. With people at school it's also different. I feel like I don't talk alot just because I don't want to stutter, which I think makes my stuttering worse. Going to starbucks has been a stressful experience everytime I try to order a drink because I always think oh damn I'm going to have to say my name. My heart starts racing as it leads up to my name. Always thinking: Is this going to be the day I can't say my name. It's getting more difficult to say it. Somehow saying my full name is fine but if asked of my first name it's a problem. I keep thinking of saying another name when they ask me my name, but I know that if I do that I definitely lost the stuttering battle, so I'll keep fighting, It might take a while to say my name but I'll say it eventually.