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My personal stutter I feel as though my stutter is drastically different from the “nominal” or “clinically diagnosed” stutter. My stutter happens infrequently, mostly when I’m nervous, But even then it’s not consistent. I’ll have moments of intense anxiety where I speak eloquently and some moments of serenity where I’m stumbling over my name. It’s usually only a single word every few sentences, never prolonged stammering. I feel like I’m forcing myself to stutter, it just seems so unnatural since most of my speech is fine, however those few moments of stuttering are debilitating enough to make me fear speaking. My brother older has a much more frequent and harsh stutter, he was my best friend through childhood, my assumption is growing up listening to him for most of my life made my mind assume “this is how we should speak”. I feel for him and I still consider myself very fortunate for what little stutter I have, but I want it gone, I can’t help but feel like I’m doing this to myself.