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i’m sick of this 16M been stuttering for as long as i remember. just really needed to vent i’ve been holding all this in for quite some time. i usually stutter through blocks and lately they’ve gotten really bad like almost every time i try to say something there’s at least one block. it’s really bad at work because i work at chipotle and you have to talk to the customers and i have a quiet voice so they usually don’t hear me the first time and they say what and i try to repeat myself but it was hard enough saying it the first time, so i just block for a few seconds and they look at me like wtf? it really slows the line down and i feel like my managers know about my stutter and are getting tired of it. it also really sucks whenever i’m with my friends and everyone’s adding to the conversation talking about their opinions and such, but i always just sit back and listen or say really small sentences because i don’t even think it’s worth adding in my opinion because i know i’m gonna block and i don’t wanna face the embarrassment. i know they’d understand but it just isn’t worth it to me. and it’s so embarrassing whenever i block in front of my family and they just make fun of me like :/ i’m trying. and my sister is always like “you can’t go to the doctor or something your stutter’s getting really bad” like no theres no fucking doctor and i know it’s gotten bad. i feel like everyone thinks i’m a weirdo because whenever they talk to me i block for a few seconds and my mouth just like moves while i’m trying to get the word out. i feel so alone because i don’t tell anyone how i feel bc of how embarrassing it is. i just don’t know what to do anymore. really reaching my breaking point