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Anxiety due to stuttering Hi, I'm 23 yo student, I stutter since I know for myself and I just need to vent a bit. I've been following this subreddit for a few weeks now and I think this could be the right place for this. I apologize if I'm off-topic because what I want to say is more about the anxiety that followed my stuttering. This is actually not my first time on Reddit, I joined it about 8 months ago, but for less than 24h. I had this online class (practical, something related to programming) and the evening before, I was so nervous because I never saw that kind of programming before (I usually like programming) and the professor in that class was quite rude and unpleasant, so I was in a panic and afraid of him calling my name and asking me to share my screen so he can see how I am doing the task and I wanted to do that in advance so I can be more self-confident if that happens. I started Googleing, but without success, and then I tried to find some programming forum in hope that someone will help me with the task. I found the information that certain subreddits could be useful and I did so, I asked on Reddit for help and it didn't go well. Some users were very mean to me saying that it's homework and that I had to do it by myself, someone literally counted me all the reasons why I'm off-topic, etc. I felt very very bad because of that. So guilty and stupid, so I deleted that account and avoid Reddit in general. I'm very frustrated because of that kind of situations, I mean, I'm 23, I'm not a kid anymore and even my stuttering is better today, but anxiety, that irrational fear of some situations, especially with kind of people that can be unpleasant and rude - it's killing me. Again, I know this post is more about anxiety than stuttering, so I apologize once again. I just need to share this with someone, I just had to find my way back on Reddit and I thought who is going to understand me better than the people with the same issue. I mean, after all, it all started with not being able to speak fluidly, I mean, after all, it's one of the basic things people do - communicate. I apologize for this post being this long as well and if I had some writing errors, I'm not a native speaker. And thank you for reading this.