I appreciate your words of wisdom bro and I’m glad you met people in your life who accepted you and loved you for you being yourself. But deep down I just don’t think those things are meant to happen to me. I just don’t believe or feel that I’m meant to be loved or fall in love. I’ve had girls I cared about and that I wanted to get to know but all they did was make fun of my stutter or laugh about it to my face so I know how to shrug it off a little bit now and move on. I’ll admit some of It still haunts me til this day and sometimes it randomly starts playing back in my head but I usually just try to forget about it and move on. The thoughts of online dating really frightens me so I don’t think I will ever do it because I don’t even know how to talk to girls or speak to them so I’m really capable of just being ignored the same way I am in person. Truth be told I never really had a conversation with a girl before, I tried to but I always got ignored, laughed at, cursed out, or made them uncomfortable so that made them wanna get away from me. I feel like me reaching out to a girl in online dating would be the same as me doing it in person, meaning no difference. I don’t have any anger built up towards any of the girls who rejected me or laughed at me or anything either because I truly get it and I don’t blame them for it, I blame myself. Thanks again for your words of encouragement bro I wish you the best as well.