commentr/StutterJanuary 11, 2021

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I met my boyfriend through friends in middle school. We didn't date until senior year of highschool. I remember being in an art history class my junior year and the teacher would go around the room and make everyone read a paragraph out of the textbook. I had already told my teacher I didn't want to read out loud. My teacher told me that if I can do it then I should. I was always nervous but my boyfriend (friend at the time) would encourage me to read and tell me not to worry about what the rest of the class thinks. He would always tell me that I did great even though I would evaluate all the times I stuttered. THAT class was the only class I read aloud in, I was always nervous but I had this person there that knew how much it bothered me and was actually proud of me pushing through. There was one incident when we went to subway and I asked him to order my sub, he said he would but he didn't know what I wanted and kinda put me on the spot. I froze and felt my face getting red and lightheaded and I walked away, in the middle of the order I just walked outside then sat down and cried. He was mad for me leaving him on the spot but he saw how different the anxiety was for me and him. Ever since then he has ordered my food. Last week he got me to order my food over the phone and I didn't stutter and we were both proud.

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Emotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Anxiety & Social JudgmentAcceptance & Pride

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