Man I I feel you dude I remember being a kid and not stuttering much at all I didn’t even know I had a stutter then idk why the fuck but I started to stutter more as I got older then people started to label me as a stutterer so i think that dug it deeper into my consciousness that I am a stutterer and then making the stutter even worse I noticed when I’m just enjoying life and not giving a fuck about stuttering is when I stutter the least I actually talk perfectly fine but then I’ll think like wow I haven’t stutterer in a while then once I think about that I start stuttering so I came to the conclusion that the more conscious I am about my stutter the more I will stutter so I try to forget it and think as if I don’t stutter but that can be pretty difficult I always think like man I could of had so many friends and pulling many Females in high school if I could talk the way I wanted to but that is life stuttering may not allow you to talk as you wish but it will teach your a lot about yourself if you pay attention I sometimes think like if i wasn’t a stutterer would I be as wise as I am right now?