Thank you for sharing. I have been there my friend and I share your feelings sometimes too. Sure the world around us doesn't realize the battle stutterers have to fight every time we just want to say something. Naturally, once in a while we can feel down and exhausted because we carry that heavy backpack everywhere we go. And so whatever you achieve in life, don't forget to be double proud of yourself. It does get better over time, trust me. When I was a kid I felt like a village fool. Some people would laugh at my stutter, some adults would try to "correct me" and so on. I was angry with myself. I felt guilty not being a normal kid. With age I learned not to worry about it and just did what I wanted to do. Recently I presented at a prestigious conference before hundreds of people, professors, directors, etc. Did I stutter? Was I exhausted when done? Yes and yes, I am sure, but usually don't care. My life improved quite a lot on the day when I stopped worrying about it. I remember that moment and place vividly. I was about 20. I am not making this up. Talking is still exhausting for me sometimes but I no longer feel frustrated, guilty, angry. I do what I want to do, I have an amazing kid, amazing career, amazing friends... So heads up, smile, live and enjoy life.