I don't know how to fix my life

I don't know how to fix my life I graduated from university and I didn't try to find a job with my diploma because of fear of my stuttering. I lost that chance anyway. Since I was free, I was helping my bf's freelancing projects. But I wanna break up with him so badly. I find him abusive and so dominant in my life. So breaking up with him means that I am not gonna be secure in any case anymore. I met him during the pandemic and I spent time with him more than usual. So I believe I am kinda addicted to him also. I have a very small circle and they all think he is manipulative and liar. I actually don't know how to fix my life into better condition. I am thinking to find a cleaning job as a starting point. I hope I'll find peace.