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im tired Im just tired of always being the silent one, when I tried to speak its never like "he has good opinion on this topic" or " i will talk with him about this more because, i like him" its always like, dead silence or I will ignore what he said because he apear weak so i will just ignore him. I just cant take it anymore, i have good friends who know i sttuter (even i never told them) but still, i can see that when I sttuter they just like yeah, he talking about something, lets just act inintersted even if im not. It never will be like normal person conversation,im alawys be the wierd one,always be the one you can argue with because you will always win, because you will always win against sttuter in argument in eyes of others even if you are not right, because when you "sttuter" you are lier or wrong. Im just so tired overall, its just so depresing to always being some diferent personality, because "this personality" dont sttuter, so in the end i dont even know know who im, im the silent,misterious one, or im the True hard man who is stoic, or im I the the nobody who will just be, who ever the social situation, dictate him to be, because he will just want to flow with the river, to not to be comfrotet with the speaking situation,WHO IM I? im just my dissablity, im just shadow of my potentail,im just fraction of my True self, and im alawys be that way, only reason why im still alive is my brother and my mom, PS: I just needed to write something like this, im just exausted.