I feel for you man. I've been there too. Moreso when I was a teenager (I'm now 25). But, unfortunately, you'll stay in this rut if you continue with this mindset. That's right, the way you view yourself and view life matters. I'm just going to leave this video here, as it explains everything I would be writing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6zkZwcXMcys