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Started stuttering in mid 30s I grew up hearing about how my father had a stutter when he was young, but I've never had any speech difficulties that I know of, besides that I didn't start talking until I was 4. Over the last year or so I've been uncovering and coming to understand my childhood trauma, as my family, who I don't talk to anymore, have scapegoated, abused, and neglected me my whole life. Recently though, as I've been working through my trauma it has been becoming more and more relevant that when I'm struggling with anxiety or having a particularly hard time it becomes really hard for me to speak, I'll start forming the sound I'm trying to say with my mouth but won't vocalize until I can actually get the word out. I started really noticing that a few months ago, then a few days ago I had a breakthrough with working through my trauma and now depending on how I'm doing I have started actually stuttering. It's really freaking me out and I'm feeling like I must be faking it or something. With starting to stutter I've also started getting really scared that something bad will happen associated with it. My anxiety has been really going up because of this. I guess, I don't really have a question, I'm just having a lot of feelings and I'd really like to know if I'm not alone in this kind of struggle. Maybe if anyone has any advice I'd appreciate that too