I'm happy to see the support you are receiving here. I'm going to take a different approach. And please know that I support you. I want to see you improve. To feel better. To be healthier. Stop what I call "wrong-thinking." We as stutterers often treat ourselves worse than the treatment we, on occasion, receive from others. We relive moments over and over. Wishing we had done something different. In most cases, we did nothing wrong. We did the best we could. Your perception of people looking down on you is more false than true. That's your head f'ing with you. More wrong-think. Treat yourself with kindness. When you catch yourself wrong-thinking, you MUST stop yourself. Start giving yourself credit for your successes. Fluency related or elsewhere. Doesn't matter. But if you're inclined to beat yourself up for a stutter that is outside of your control, at least balance the scale by giving yourself credit for all of your successes and accomplishments. Are you a loser? Only if you believe that of yourself. Or believe that others are feeling that way about you. People pick up on those vibes. You're going to carry yourself a certain way if you feel that you don't belong, or that people think less of you. It's a self-fulfilling situation. You feel it. Your body language reflects it. People feel it. None of this is easy. Changing attitudes and thoughts take time and effort. Time and effort make winners. I implore you to start thinking differently.