not gonna lie man, you can’t live like this. You’ve got potentially 60+ years of life ahead of you. You need to do what you want to do in life. Forget about the stutter and think about what you really want to do. I know many people, and have seen people in this sub who are doctors, lawyers, motivational speakers. If they can do that, then you can do anything as well. Stuttering is not something that ever going to go away for you, you’ll never be a fluent speaker, you’ve gotta accept that and accept the cards you’ve been dealt. If you think your speech is such a big hinderance, why don’t you maybe try and do something about it? There’s many speech programs, and potential treatment options you could seek out. It’s worth a try, i would say based off what you’ve said, that anything is better than where you’re at now. You’ve got several degrees so I would say you’re more than qualified to do any job within those fields. In my country (australia) they can’t not hire you because you stutter, if you are the right candidate, stutter or not, you get the job. I’m not sure about where you live but maybe keep that in mind