Damn, that dream job really hit home with me, I take whatever I can get, and I am just now realizing it. It is hard but we have to not think so bad or critique everything. I am working on the same thing. My wife says I am a negative person, but she just does not realize what we as people that stutter have to go through everyday just to answer the phone, the door or introduce ourselves to new people. It is a struggle within.