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Wow that is such a great first quote! Well done with your achievements as well! I tend to be so into the moment like with sales, etc, that I don't really do much internally as I am just not thinking over it because I'm preoccupied with how much the job should be and if there's any room for negotiation. Sometimes I hit these conditioned blocks like on the word "stress" for some reason when speaking about a tree. I should probably do something there but.. i just stutter through it then carry on without a second thought to it, lol. It is tedious to be highly aware of my stutter, when I am, I can surprisingly override it well, I did it on the discord on command before when the admin wanted to show others, he'd hear me stutter, ask me to go fluent as a game, and I'd be hyper aware of how I am and stay in this willful state of staying fluent like over confidence overriding any doubt. Almost like feeling, before I was timid, now I am a lion, there is no reason I can't stay in a fluent state, almost like puffing my chest up but not neccessary. Just just a mind over matter kind of thing. But it is tedious so it doesn't take much to let go after and stop being hyper vigilant controlling my speech feeling fluent. It was like I was preprocessing to feel if something came up, if it did, I might slow my roll a bit or strengthen my resolve that there's nothing magical about any word and I can talk easy, like I am being my own choir pulling myself forward. But that's just a game. I'd rather just not think about it and when it comes up, check my feelings and deal with my inner emotions to reset so to speak as I may repeat and a little breath with sound to let the word out or just pause to let the stutter come and go. If it's a difficult one, maybe it takes me more than a moment but I am more focused on being more calm and mindful of the price and what I am there for than the stutter, and it's just curiosity to me, nothing more.