Thanks for the kind words everyone, it really helps. Although it was super hard and uncomfortable, I kinda see it as positive experience to get exposure to these situations and (hopefully) get desensitized. I think the biggest issue is the anxiety that comes with these situations, I start to get brain farts because I'm trying to fit what I'm trying to say with words that I won't stutter and in the end I it seems like I have no idea what I'm taking about.