I've wished that too. It's fucking EXHAUSTING trying to plan your life around your stutter. I feel like it controls everything I do i.e. where I go to eat, what I order, whether or not I go to parties because I cannot introduce myself without stuttering, etc. I wouldn't wish a stutter upon my worst enemy. I've been molded into a person that I do not like or want to be because of the limitations my speech has caused. I sincerely empathize with you. I know it wears you the fuck down and sometimes it feels like it's all too much. Please reach out if you feel like it's all getting too overwhelming. I'll do my best to help. Hang in there OP.