commentr/StutterJune 24, 2023

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Stuttering girl here (42 yo, married). Thanks for your courageous post. Sorry this is gonna be a super long self-helpy response - but I feel your issue so strongly. I’ve been wrestling with self-worth my entire life (as most of us do, the world is a tough place) - and the best advice I could offer you (which is what I’m offering to myself) is to allow yourself to believe you are worthy of dating. You are worthy of being loved, worthy of loving others, worthy of feeling attractive, worthy of having awesome relationships, and worthy of just BEING YOU in this ridiculous world. Stutter and all. Hang ups, self-esteem issues, body image, all of it. This is not up for debate. And - yes - this is absolutely f-ing wildly difficult to accept. I struggle on the daily with feeling so much shame and worthlessness around my stutter. And have spent much of my life trying to reject that part of myself, ignore it, hate on it, pretend it’s not real (LOL RIGHT). And I think the most helpful avenue, for me, into feeling worthy - is trying to have self-compassion for all these feels. Which is also wildly difficult to accept (because it requires me to be kind to parts of myself that I despise). It’s become a daily practice to try to accept myself as I am, with kindness. One thing that has been helpful - and I saw someone else in this thread mention it - is just acknowledging the stutter when it comes up in talking to people (either friends or strangers). When I block hardcore on a word, like the kind you said you run out of breath on - I’ll pause, take a breath in, maybe laugh at myself just to feel lighter about the moment, and say something like “Phewww that word is hard to say” or “Damn it’s a rough speaking day (or week, or month, LOL)”, or especially with strangers “Sorry I have a stutter, it can be hard to say words. Bear with me.” People usually react to that really well. I don’t always have the courage to say these things - but when I do it definitely feels empowering, to own my own reality even tho I may not like it (or may even hate it). If you can bring this kind of acceptance - and vulnerability - to dating (or any relationship!!! friend or date or work peeps or whomever), you will find the right people for you. If your girl can’t hang with your stutter, SHE is not worthy of YOU. Imho.

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Emotional ExperienceIdentity & DisabilitySocial & Relationships

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Shame & EmbarrassmentAcceptance & PrideDating & Romance