A lot of gold in there….agreed, the more I try to be fluent, the more likely I am to stammer. As such, I do not aim to be fluent, rather communicate effectively. At least in my thinking anyway I hear you when you talk about self development, for me that equates to self actualisation, actualising the inherent potential of who I am, becoming who I am meant to be, the best version of myself…and that includes my speech as it is at this point in time and learning to accept that