This is me 100%. I know I'm an extrovert, I love going out with friends and I love meeting new people, but it terrifies me. Despite this I still go out whenever I get the chance, but I'm way less talkative than I want to be due to my stuttering (and a few other things) and it just sucks. A few times I've gotten what I now deem "the look" (they look at me with a weird, curious but not positive look) when I get a major block as I'm trying to introduce myself and that just puts be in a bad mood the entire rest of the night. Like, while I could've had a cool conversation with a new person, I've messed it up completely. Way worse when it's with someone I may be romantically interested in. Edit: I've thought to myself so many times, "if I didn't stutter I'd have a totally different personality and life right now" least in terms of influences and friends and stuff. So, with that, I'm sometimes glad I do stutter cause I like where I'm at. Otherwise it just gets in the way of the life I want.