That seems like one of those spiral things. Like when I was a teenager, I could talk on the phone every single day, no problem. Then I hit my twenties and a couple bad experiences with having to make professional phone calls, suddenly, I couldn't use a phone. It was a paralyzing panic, each time. And that went on for years and years. I probably went 9 years without ever making a phone call. This is a really common experience among stutterers. We're okay with something, then we have a bad experience, we fixate on it, and the dread and anxiety begins building, which are things that make a stutter worse. The longer we avoid [x thing] because of [bad experience] and [dread of exposure]/[dread of reactions], the more dread we feel, the worse it gets. But that's the difference between acknowledging and accepting our stutter, and just completely letting our fear of it control our lives. One is born out of something positive, the other is born out of something negative. And they will certainly impact your life respectively. If you view your stutter as something shameful, something that makes you look like an idiot, something you need to hide, then the fear of it will control you. If you can come to view your stutter as something neutral, something you'll always have and need to work with instead of against, there will be no fear there to control you. This is all to say, fixation and acknowledgement can be a good thing, if you're fixating on and acknowledging your stutter in a healthy and positive and productive way. If you're only fixating on and acknowledging your fear of it, then obviously that is the way of badness.