We all felt like you feel right now. I wanted to die many times when I was in school. May I know your age and gender? I'm an older female who stuttered from the age of 4-5. I fully recovered from my stuttering at 70! My dysfluency was caused by childhood emotional trauma, and yes, It was centered on my parents. Psychotherapy freed my speech. Stuttering, though, has many causes. Every stutterer manifests differently too. Some physical causes are developmental disabilities, severe physical brain damage, and even stroke. These aren't even all the possible physical causes. One specialist even believes early child viral infection can damage the amygdala, a vital portion of the development of early speech centers. There is new research every day. There are even drugs that show promising effects in stuttering. There is a researcher whose research is viewable on Youtube, he’s also a lifelong stutterer: Go to youtube ‘Dr. Gerald Maguire’ Please continue with any therapy you can. Others on r/stutter have posted many valuable tips. You’ll find an empathetic peer group in this forum. Your mother must be dealing with her own emotions of powerlessness watching you suffer. I know what you're experiencing is pure hell for you, but even though you do stutter, the world isn't closed to you. Fluency changes throughout your life and just because you're miserable right now, there’s hope things can get better. Pursue excellence in something. Continue your therapy and your education. Your achievements will add to your self-confidence. Remain strong. This handicap can teach you resilience and empathy. Dont give-up Sue