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Are we doomed in Life? I'm about to turn 23 and the last 6 years I've spend literally rotting not seeing a way out. The moment at 16 whenI realized I was different to my peers, that people viewed me differently, that I was labeled as DISABLED, HANDICAPPED etc etc my world shattered. And it's not that being noticed that is the problem, it rhe fact that you most probably aren't going to be noticed. Nobody will care. I had never seen myself like that until that point. I didn't feel different and I thought I was perfectly capable to achieve whatever I wanted to. But I'm left hopeless now. I feel like society will never take me seriously. Like I'm not how humans are supposed to be. Nature's mistake. That I wil never amount to anything in my life and that I will never reach the potential I'm now even doubting I had in the first place. My life will be full of mockery, patronising, regrading people that will look down on me. And I will be a fearful person, a coward, being grateful for the slightest respect shown to me because I inherently don't deserve it and I should be happy with what I am given. The only people that I will associate with are fellow losers, outcasts and the only guy that would ever want to date me would be desperate or have a fetish. I'm fighting between the urge to fight for the life I think I deserve and my inferiority feelings. I hate to make them think they were right, because deep inside I feel they are right/ realistic/objective you name it about me, and at the same time I doubt myself too. I don't want to be a victim but I do also feel powerless confronted with the cards I've been dealt. I'm just scared I'm gonna waste my life.