My stutter is making me depressed.

My stutter is making me depressed. Hello, I'm in 9th grade and the title speaks for itself. A few years ago a pretty traumatic event happened and after that I got my stutter. My stutter isn't that bad, I can still hold up a solid conversation without stuttering but when I have to speak in front of the class that's when it's bad. I'ts not the traditional stutter, before a word I think I'm gonna stutter at ,I just break and can't say the word like nothing comes out. So tips like "slow down" or "breath" don't work, the only times when that doesn't happen is when I'm mad. I've been to a professional before but that didn't work. Nobody ever mentions it but I just know they think it's funny or weird, because of my stutter and those thoughts I've been really depressed those couple of weeks, my mental state was already bad but I'ts getting worse by the day. Who would ever like a loser like me who can't even say a word? Who overthinks and pretends to care? Why do I have this? Will this ever go away? Please help, I can't take this any more.