>We just had a Zoom call and i didnt speak in the whole 2 hours just because I was anxious **and thought that since i didnt speak in the beginning, it would be weird to speak now and that everyone will pay closer attention to me. I often fell like I am not the person I am and want to be.** This isn't specific to stuttering, but - you have to lose that mindset. It's habitual self-sabotage. - Is you anxiety diagnostical?