Would we really be better off if we didn’t stutter?
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Would we really be better off if we didn’t stutter? Hey guys, so I’m almost 24 years old. I actually didn’t begin stuttering until I was about 21 years old. And I believe that I began stuttering because of my lack of assertiveness, people pleasing, perfectionism, and an overly strong worry about my reputation and about how other people see me. What I know is that, even before stuttering, I would avoid or feel uncomfortable around the “cool kids” or people I thought were more confident than me. I didn’t like conversations with authority figures and I was just generally uncomfortable connecting with people, even on a friendly basis. But it’s actually beginning to stutter that has led me to look at these internal issues and begin to strengthen myself and build assertiveness and power. So many people might say things like, “I would approach that girl if I didn’t stutter.” Or I would ask that cool dude at the gym to shoot some hoops if I didn’t stutter,” etc etc. But I feel like in reality, many of us just generally have poor self image and lack assertiveness and wouldn’t change our behavior much even if we didn’t stutter. Because there are many fluent speakers that avoid speaking situations or lack the confidence to commit to the social interactions they are experiencing. Yes, stuttering makes it more difficult to approach people or commit to someone we have a crush on, but it’s better to stutter I feel, and it be motivating us to build confidence, then to be fluent, like I was, and continuing my passive, people pleasing mindset that I believe heavily contributed to the onset of my stuttering. It was only stuttering that has led me down the path of stopping trying to blend in with others but instead contend with anyone, even those more powerful than me. I can look at those cool powerful guys as inspiration rather than a cue to voluntarily turn myself into a little bug that volunteers to be stepped all over (metaphorically speaking). In college I began to reward myself for making a lot of aquaintances by being somebody I wasn’t, and this is part of where I was deceived and things went down hill. It’s not that I’m advocating being a jerk, but with a positive mindset, set your boundaries while still being able to offer something to those around you that will offer a little of themselves in return. I think a lot of us see the “cool guys” or authority figures as a danger, but in reality they hold the tools for us to get over our stuttering. Because they know how to be assertive and powerful. I do believe that I am also on the autistic spectrum and that contributes to making me more sensitive to criticism AND uncomfortable receiving compliments. And also more likely to let others take the lead in socializing. But to the best of my ability, I should be myself unapologetically and not fear the outcome. I believe of course there are difficult days ahead. And all of us stutter for different reasons. And I still have a habit of placing myself below others. But I want to keep moving forward, and learn to express myself and see myself as equal to all other people. What do you guys think? Are any of you on a similar journey? EDIT: So after giving it some thought I do feel that this post is more directed towards those who stutter more mildly, as I feel that I tend to fall more into that category. Because at least for me, to look at it in a positive light, I am able to fairly freely express myself while at the same time being set back some from stuttering, which motivates me to build confidence speaking. Of course, for those who overcome even the most severe stuttering this post would probably still apply in hindsight because of the amount of positive personality growth that would go into that recovery. But as I said, this post is more directed towards those that stutter more mildly