commentr/StutterOctober 30, 2023

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I used to think this for the longest time, but then I realize most people are actually 'not' impatient. They're just reacting to our reaction that we display after we stutter. As stutterers, most of us tend to show reactions such as shame, guilt, awkwardness, etc. immediately after a stuttering/blocking instance. The listener is most likely not bothered by the stutter, but they're bothered by our reaction to it. We can't blame them for this. We'll be impatient as well if the person we're speaking with constantly looks like they want to escape the conversation, does not maintain eye contact, displays a closed body language, and looks ashamed in general. I experimented this with strangers in a grocery store, asking them for time or asking them for location of an item they have in their cart: 1) First group of strangers I voluntarily stuttered on certain words. However **I maintained my composure as if nothing had happened, maintained eye contact, and kept a smile on my face.** Most strangers treated me completely normally, and most didn;t even seem to care/notice my stutter 2) second group of strangers, I voluntarily stuttered on the same words, **but let my feeling of shame and awkwardness wash over me, did not maintain eye contact, and didn't smile**. I could visibly notice the strangers getting impatient, and trying to rush me. **My humble conclusion:** Nobody gave a shit if I stuttered or not, as long as I was confident and smiled. But they definitely reacted when I visibly became uncomfortable of my own stutter. **Lesson learnt:** If you're not comfortable with who you are (regardless of whether you stutter or not), you cannot expect others to be comfortable with you.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Hiding & ConcealmentAuthenticity vs. Masking