I had lots of breakdowns. I can relate. I can also see how your mom calling your stutter "interesting" can feel almost humiliating. Truth is its not. Your stutter is not a bad thing. But its impossible to see that from where you stand right now and I get that. The question is are you going to use "feeling like sheit" right now to fuel your journey into overcoming you stutter and taking action or are you going to use this pain you're in right now to dig yourself deeper? Do you know the steps you have to take?