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A little confused and fed up So, I have been stuttering all my life. I won’t start that sob story atleast in this group. We all can relate. I am 27 now. I feel my stutter has gotten worse. I took a few decisions in my life and alot of things didn’t turn out right and I am not doing alot at the moment. Money wise and career wise, let’s just say it’s bad. That is ok! I try not to dwell over it because I feel I can turn things around. I don’t know if anyone here is in performing arts, but there was a time when I was actually good at it. I was a completely different person on stage and I never stuttered on stage. I have been a natural dancer too. I feel these 2 things came naturally to me. I didn’t work on it as I should’ve but I plan to. I wish to dive into this field and start gradually. It feels very scary because as I told that my stutter has gotten worse. I read a scene in front of a mirror, or by myself. I know that it’s good and it comes out beautifully but as soon as a person is placed in front of me or when I am talking to a friend with whom I am very comfortable, everything changes. I am aware that I am blinking my eyes and making really weird face gestures to bring out certain letters. So, what exactly is this? What exactly happens when we are in front of a person or on call? Is this judgement , anxiety or what? This little difference can change my life. Like people work on their bodies in the gym, will we have to work on our speech the same way? Like, rigorously? Does that help? Maybe a week of my scene practice is very little to judge? Doing this every single day , will that make a difference or will I just be the same in front of a person even after hours of practice?