I've missed out on a lot of things in life. I'm in the second half of my twenties and I feel like I haven't experienced anything. I've gone through so much material on stuttering acceptance but it hasn't done anything for me. I cannot bring myself to stutter completely in the open because I feel degraded and inadequate. I see stuttering as something to hide, when I have a horrible stuttering experience in front of others it feels like I'm mooning everyone in the room. I'd rather keep my mouth shut and look intimidating than look inadequate.