stuttering is ruining my life.

stuttering is ruining my life. Now I wasn't always stuttering growing up. But as I got older my stuttering got really bad. It's to the point I cant hold a simple conversation/ talk on the phone. I talk fast aswell on top of me stuttering and it been ruining My life . I miss out on so many jobs Because of it. My throat hurt so much because I stutter and I feel like my speech will not get better . I cry every night wishing I could talk more fluent