I understand but this is just my perspective even though we may not agree. Even I have dark thoughts from time to time which I admitted in my OP but that's just how I personally deal with them. Im an RN and seeing the difficult chronic conditions my patients have to battle with helps me realize that my stutter should be the least of my problems when I have so much to be thankful for like good health. People we talk to usually don't even care that we stutter as much as we think they do.