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I guess u can call this a vent lol I've kind of starting stammering since about October last year out of no where. To be honest it can either be good or bad but boy it affects my life. I've dealt with speech problems in the past (not once was stammering an issue i think) and thought I finally don't have to worry about my speech anymore (until this showed up lol.) I have no clue what caused it...maybe my previous speech problems? Or maybe something not diagnosed? Idk. Cos most people have stammers since childhood, I don't. I find it really hard in social situations, especially when the person/people don't know me already and don't know i stammer. I'm not "shy" or "too stuck up to talk," it's just sometimes I genuinely can't. For example if I'm i want to say to a coworker "did you see the new _____movie" sometimes i can only say the word "did" or letter "d" and that's it. This makes the other person think jesus christ isn't that person rude can't make conversation. I'm really at a loss. I want to be a teacher, and I'm really worried if I have to give up on my dreams because of my stammer. Well to be fair every job requires communication. I'm just worried about the future really, will I ever get help and not have to deal with this. I find it gets worse when I kind of know what to say. And whatever sentence is ticking over my head. My brain just tells me "you're not going to say it right," making me anxious and then it happens. Or when I'm in a conversation and someone says something to me, sometimes I just can't reply as I'm put on the spot. I'm trying to process an answer and worry about this stammer and if I say the sentence right at the same time. There's things I WANT to say but CAN'T say because I genuinely can't get the words out. Idk what you can call this lol; a vent, cry for help, idk. But yeah if u made it this far we'll done lol