Stutterer since birth here. I can’t get past letter s lately. A sort of memoir

Stutterer since birth here. I can’t get past letter s lately. A sort of memoir These days, I can’t even tell people I have a stutter. When I try, I go ssssss…sssss…. I can’t make the jump to the next letter, t. The only way I can get the word out is by saying sss-Uh-tutter. It sounds too awkward for me to say it anymore. My stutter is debilitating, as a social person at least. I hate when people call me quiet kid as if they think I’m a murderer. Like I wish I could talk to you, seriously. Thanks for reading. Any tips on getting past the s?