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I feel like you could be on to something. I've always found that when I would have big changes in my life, my stutter would flare up. Moving school, moving countries, moving parents places. Everytime it would flare up. I think we are all highly susceptible to "change" in our lives. And I think "change" is very emotionally charged in us. I think we are in our most natural state when the outcome is predictable. - Even when it comes to emotions - We thrive under predictable emotions. š confidence - we are certain of our selves. š self assured - again, certain of ourselves š calm - feeling of safety & assurance š carefree - "no matter the outcome I'll be fine" š rage - we KNOW we are right and we are going to show you. And we block up and stutter much more on unpredictable emotions. ā anxiety - imagining the future scary and uncertain ā embarrassment - not knowing what people are thinking but assuming it's bad. ā low self esteem - internally feeling like you don't deserve more but still trying for "more" I feel like the best journey one can go on, is one that allows us to feel safe and welcomed in every interaction. And that's not meaning "never change things up in your life".. its meaning no matter what environment you are in, find a way to feel certain about yourself. Even if it's in the smallest things, like being certain that you are going to take 1 step in the right direction today. being certain you're going to follow your truth. That's a fulfilling way to live for me, no matter the outcome or the unpredictable emotions, I know I will be authentic in this interaction. I've gotten into the habit of valuing my actions I take way more than any outcome that came about. I stayed true to myself and that is my biggest asset. But of course this means yes, when I'm not sure of myself I will be stuttering a bit more. That's fine though, I believe feeling safe to be authentic is the best feeling in the world.. we get shown when we are out of alignment. Blessing. (Now that I'm done with my rant I feel like I barely spoke about your question, kind of tangented, my bad haha. I still think it's a good read :)